Saturday, May 02, 2009
of daily enjoyments..soul searching.. and living without regrets...
so you guys know i've been rolling with a new group.
they are oh such great fun!!!note: when i say 'new group' i dont mean i've ditched the last one... because i've never had one to begin with!
let me Further explain: i've never had a group of people, who i've grown up with. who've stayed around my estate and gone to the same school, same church, done silly things with after school, met up with at 'the corner coffee shop' etc...
by a twisted turn of events,
ie, nick commenting on my mambo pictures that he liked mambo too and didnt have a resident group to go with, and my inviting him to join lish and i at our next mambo, which turned into him and i clubbing together a bit, my attending ash wed at Saint Mary of The Angels (SMOTA) and then hanging out with them every day since ash wed..., i rekindled a friendship with a childhood friend who i knew 7 odd years ago but never really got to know.
let me put things into context for you guys:basically i use to stay in clementi and went to school in CHIJ TP and attended mass at St Ignatius.
clementi - toa payoh
clementi - bukit timah
then it was yew tee to TP and yew tee to St Ignatius
yew tee - tampines
yew tee - bukit timah
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i've never once had that kampung feel.
/staying around church where your church friends also stay. who coincidentally happen to go to the same school as you which is located just around the corner from home.
to sum up a long emotional sensation:hanging out with this new group of friends has at times made me feel that i had a deprived childhood. that i was robbed of the sensation of growing up with a group of people who came close to feeling as tight as a family.
it made me ponder my own childhood.
basically, i grew up sheltered.
there is no other less disgraceful way to say it. i say sheltered because i've never been exposed to things. not that i craved to be exposed to it when i was younger. so i guess i cant say i was deprived. you cant be deprived of something you didnt know you might have wanted.
i'm just faced with myself thinking,
'omg! so fun!' or
'how Awesome!' every time i hear them recount stories of what they use to do.. the things the played, the places they visited and hanged out at...
where was i when things like this was happening?and what makes it worse is that, these are the people, the things that i Could have been doing With them because i stay in this area!!!
and then recently nick asked whether or not i regretted getting to know the group.
no. never! i'm having such a ball of a time!but he questioned whether it was worth it. my constantly coming head to head with my folks who disaprove of my every night late-nights. ; paps one night being awake as i came home from supper saying that what i was doing was abnormal. that he questions my ability to stay focused when in london...
the answer remains the same. i have not and do not regret ever getting to know you guys, choosing to meet up for suppers or late night movies, or anything that involves the possibility of my parents not liking it. because the spontaneousness of the group is something too appealing. it appeals to the inner drea. the one that i might have been if the circumstances were different.BUT!: this is me bringing everyone up to speed.
i disapprove that i am constantly someone who lives dwelling the past...
*sigh*anyways.
Fast forward to today, at this present moment.
I am putting up the second of maybe.. 3 or 4 albums of today's labour day activites.
i am Burning. my skin is radiating heat through every pore. i am oh so sleepy! but i seem to insist putting the pictures up anyway. haha.
today has been a fun filled power packed day.
long, sunny and filling it's turned out to be ((:
night
night.
Posted by AndreaMaryFam at 1:22 AM
