Thursday, March 26, 2009
something brilliant has happened...
a break through has happened for me, and i am brimming with enthusiasm in wanting to share this joyous revelation.
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tonight was the official opening of the diploma show at my alma mater.
(i cant believe it's been a year!)i felt the familiar sense of nervous tension within me on going back to the school.
the all familiar fear of some one / ones, bringing up again the fact that i have put on some weight.
(i am far too lazy to recount history of problems again)and true to form, some did. but oh
wow!, something just melted within me today and i feel so...
released... renewed and rebirthed!instead of feeling really, really, really down and out about it... you know that sensation that wells up within you. that warm feeling
-one of embarrassment and shame and a sense of utter helplessness?somehow, in its place, was this feeling of,
satisfaction!i know my body.i
know the shape and size my original body template is meant to look like.
i am fit. i am healthy -i have probably skipped the gym a grand total of 17 days since returning home in november of last yr. but more importantly,
i am Happy. and to suddenly realise that i was feeling this way in place of the former dooming feeling, was such a revelation!
i felt so victorious!i cannot emphasise more how much a break through this is for me. i just cant.
i am
so happy.
Posted by AndreaMaryFam at 11:08 PM
